I am a board-certified Family Medicine physician who spent the first nine years of my career practicing full-spectrum family medicine with obstetrics. Like many physicians of my generation, I entered medicine with a deep sense of calling — and slowly lost myself inside a healthcare system that is increasingly rigid, transactional, and misaligned with human healing.

This blog is the story of finding my way back.

My journey has included profound professional and personal upheaval: medical training that required self-abandonment, a devastating back injury and surgery three months postpartum, years of navigating complex trauma while parenting a daughter later diagnosed with PANS after a decade of chaos and suffering, and professional violations that no physician is prepared for — from NPI fraud to medical board and peer review experiences that shook my sense of safety and identity.

Each chapter stripped something away. Each also planted the seeds for reclamation.

I was raised at the intersection of traditions — a Catholic father, a Jewish (ish) mother — observing holidays and rituals without belonging fully to either faith. At thirteen, I began a spiritual search of my own. I fell in love with the wisdom found across traditions and began studying meditation in high school. The teacher who guided me then became a lifelong mentor, healer, and spiritual mother — eventually marrying my husband and introducing me to spiritual teachers, saints, and healers from around the world.

Unintentionally, I set that spiritual life aside when I entered medical school.

In my forties, I realized I had forgotten where I put it — and didn’t know how to find my way back.

That remembering coincided with my transition into telemedicine in 2015, well before the pandemic reshaped healthcare delivery. Today, I am licensed in 30 states and continue to practice telemedicine, where I deeply value the patient-provider relationship, diagnostic excellence, access, and affordability. I believe technology should reduce suffering — not compound it.

As telemedicine expanded during COVID, physicians and digital health startups began reaching out for guidance. That led me to create a curriculum and coaching programs supporting physicians in transitioning to virtual care, leadership, and digital health innovation. My work integrates physician wellness, burnout recovery, entrepreneurship, and the practical realities of working in modern healthcare. I also founded a medical licensing company to make multi-state licensing more accessible and compliant for providers.

But this blog is not about credentials.

It is about soul loss — and soul return.
About identity, motherhood, faith, trauma, healing, and rebuilding a life that feels true.