Reflections on medicine, healing, and becoming.
50
For weeks, I’ve felt disconnected from the number. Fifty sounded old. I found myself wondering, What happened to my life?
I’ve grieved the feeling that I somehow lost my thirties and forties. Looking back, I think I spent much of those years surviving: doing what needed to be done, carrying responsibilities, taking care of everyone else, and moving from one obligation to the next.
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The Great Unlearning: A New Beginning
I’ve spent most of my life trying to do everything right.
Work hard. Be the good doctor. The good mother. The good wife.
For a while, I thought I was living the dream—delivering babies, caring for families, and balancing my career in family medicine with raising two amazing daughters. But what happens when doing everything right brings you to your knees? When the system you’ve trusted turns against you? When the life you’ve built, brick by brick, suddenly crumbles beneath you?